Saturday, May 21, 2011
King of Glory
Open House was tiring and I'd say a complete COMPLETE waste of time. I feel like a hypocrite when I tell the P6s that RGS is the best choice and they should totally come. Okay but then again I think I have a secret fiery passion and love for Raffles HAHA. Just not ready to be unleashed right now lmao. Tried to do some flip thing at the trampoline at the gym booth it was COMPLETE FAILURE I was the only one who couldn't do it properly ): I think I'm not daring enough. Like I tried to do handstand and my arms buckled and I fell on my hip walao it still hurts. At least I can do the baby freeze now HAHAH so fun we spent like the past few trainings trying to do cartwheels/handstands/baby freezes.
Oh yea Chanel did this amazing facepaint on my face HAHA IT'S SO PRETTY omg I wish I had talent like singing/drawing/WHATEVER. Even a weird talent would suffice. Something to make me feel proud of myself lolol.
(Doob with her "snake with legs", me with my phoenix and Chanel the artist! :D:D:D repect.)
OH YEZ 7 DAYS TO UK TRIP WHOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO CAN'T WAIT AT ALL. AT ALL. at all. AT ALL.
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Okay life hasn't been very awesome these days. I mean, they were good. I can't complain. But I just wished things could work out better. Wished I could be just a little more understanding and forgiving. I'm too headstrong I always want things to go in my way ): Sometimes I wished I was one of those people who wouldn't even get angry even when facing agonizingly annoying people. But I'm not, and I guess I'd just have to deal with what's thrown at me.
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I wanted to request for a prayer for you. Really. I don't know why but I just didn't have the courage to. I can't comprehend my feelings. I don't even know what I'm supposed to feel anymore like anger and resentment or just guilt? Maybe it's a mixture of both.
Maybe if we had seen things a little differently, just that little bit, everything would've been very different now.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Not gonna cry because of you. Who the fuck are you to do this, if you don't appreciate me then I don't have a reason to do anything more for you.
Wasted so much time thinking about what I can do for you when you OBVIOUSLY won't appreciate it anyway. LKERJA;IEJRAIW;JRAW;LIJRK screw this shit I'm gonna dig a hole and live in it.
Wasted so much time thinking about what I can do for you when you OBVIOUSLY won't appreciate it anyway. LKERJA;IEJRAIW;JRAW;LIJRK screw this shit I'm gonna dig a hole and live in it.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Anyways, holidays are coming soon. Which means I'M GOING TO UK SOON FUCK YEAH hah
a okay ignore my rude language but SERIOUSLY I really need a break from this asswipe school it's driving me nuts. Apart from that I'm also suffering from a slight identity crisis recently. I can't figure out what I want to do with my life )': And other things happening, screwed up really badly for some papers and to make things worse things are screwed with some of the most important people in my life.
Sometimes I hate myself for not being understanding enough but I keep thinking that I'm not being respected/appreciated in return either. I hate accusations pointed at me like how I'm not appreciative enough or how I don't care enough. Yea like seriously if you misinterpret caring for nonchalance then okay I really have no idea what else to do. Wanna hop into my mind and see how much space you actually take up in there?
Okay so my plans for June.
1) PARTY
2) TRIP
3) Revise.........
4) Chill with friends. Long list of people to catch up with
5) Go to church
6) Finally decorate my room:
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Bold if you did
It’s night right now.
There’s something else you should be doing at the moment.
You ate chicken today.
You are lactose intolerant.
There’s a nearby TV on.
You get along with your neighbors.
Twilight is a horrible series.
You’re hungry right now.
You have worked out today.
Running a mile sounds awful.
You have a job.
You love to bake Christmas cookies.
Your parents are still together.
You woke up before 8 this morning.
Baths are better than showers.
You are 5’5” or shorter.
You hate British accents.
Victoria’s Secret is a good store.
Cats are better than dogs.
The 90’s sucked.
Your cell phone is right next to you.
Your favorite color is either blue or purple.
Your hair is short.
You are by yourself right now.
The last thing you drank was water.
You’re in your PJ’s right now.
Your hair color is natural.
Fred from Youtube is annoying.
You don’t drink soda.
You are at least 130 lbs.(how heavy is this?!)
There’s at least 20$ in your wallet.
It’s cold out.
Orange juice is better than apple juice.
You love someone right now.
Video games are awesome.
Your sheets are white.
You have read works by Shakespeare before.
You’re fat.
You’ve been professionally diagnosed with a psychological disorder.
You know someone in the hospital right now.
You’ve showered today.
You know someone who has beaten cancer.
Sneakers are your favorite shoes to wear.
Chocolate is better than vanilla.
You’re allergic to peanuts.
You’ve never been to New York.
You’ve never been on a varsity sports team.
You want to go to Europe.
You’re using a laptop right now.
Plastic surgery is a good idea. (BECAUSE I WANNA BE A PLASTIC SURGEON LMAO)
Vanilla is the best scent a girl can wear.
You’ve made yourself throw up.
You’ve cheated on someone before.
You have a broken heart at the moment.
Your friends do drugs.
School is too early.
Your nails have nail polish on them right now.
You’re Italian.
You have a tan right now.
You’ve been on a diet before.
You shop in plus sized clothing stores.
Hot Topic is scary.
There are socks on your feet right now.
You’ve used a hair straightener.
Shopping online is easier than shopping in an actual store.
You’re in Verizon’s network.
Cheesecake is delicious.
Your BMI falls into the overweight category.
You have gotten your hair cut in the past month.
Your birthday is within the next 2 months.
You’ve been rejected.
Comedies are better than action films.
Math is the best subject.
You are fluent in more than one language.
You love Greek food.
You consider yourself a picky eater.
You have more than 3 pillows on your bed.
You live with your parents.
You’re happy right now. (half.)
You are a high school graduate.
You have a pet cat.
You were born before April 5th, 1991.
You have brown hair.
You have blue eyes.
You last name is longer than 5 letters long.
You are in a relationship.
You are can count to 20 in another language.
You have studied a foreign language.
You voted in the 2008 presidential election.
You own a vehicle that is older than a 2004.
You have worked 3rd shift.
You have worked in a fast food restaurant.
You drove somewhere that was further than a half hour away today.
You live in New Jersey.
You live in Montana.
You live in Pennsylvania.
Your last name begins with an ‘M’.
Your middle name begins with a ‘C’.
Your first name begins with an ‘S’.
You are older than 19.
You are younger than 16.
You are an only child.
Your parents are divorced.
You have more than one sibling.
You are an Aquarius.
You are a vegetarian.
You have a gym membership.
You are in the military.
You have a relative in the military.(ns?)
You have been to Canada.
You have been to Mexico.
You have been to Europe.
You are currently enrolled in college/university.
You have done something you told yourself you wouldn’t.
You have braces.
You wear contact lenses.
You have a tattoo on your ankle.
You have a tattoo on your wrist.
You have a tattoo on your lower back.
You have a tattoo on your upper arm.
You have a lip piercing.
You have a tongue piercing.
You have your nipples pierced.
You have your cartilage pierced.
You have curly hair.(wavy)
You have received flowers from someone in the last 2 months.
You are engaged.
You are married.
You have children.
You are an aunt or uncle.
Your bedroom walls are blue.
Your bedspread is red.
Your bedroom carpet is beige.
You have been out to eat at a sit-down restaurant in the last week.
You have been drunk in the past 24 hours.
You have lost your virginity before you turned 15.
You are bisexual.
You watch Scrubs.
You watch Jon & Kate Plus 8.
You watch American Idol.
You have been to the movies within the last month.
You have cursed in front of your grandparents.
You had a lunch box with a cartoon character on it when you were little. (guess what. Still have one now)
You actually pay attention to politics.
You are still waiting for your first kiss.
You have kissed someone within the last week.
You have kissed three or more people this year.
You would kiss the last person you kissed again.
You were told you looked cute today.
You were hugged today.
Your best friend is the opposite sex.
You have paid more than $100 on one item of clothing.
You had a date to prom.
You are a good speller.
You are always on time.
You believe in karma.
You have done something illegal within the last 24 hours. (lmao jaywalk)
You have thrown up within the last 6 months.
You have ridden an elevator within the last 3 days.
You have spent the night at someone else’s house within the last 2 weeks.
You have been out of the country within the last year.
You love Chinese food.
You love Italian food.
You love Mexican food.
You love country music.
You love rap.
You love hip hop.
You love punk rock.
You love hard rock.
You love metal.
You love classic rock.
You love bluegrass.
You love oldies.
You love techno.
You love instrumental music.
You have taken pictures of yourself just because you were bored.
You know someone younger than 10 who passed away.
You have been in a car wreck.
You have had stitches.
You have a parent who is a teacher.
You have a debit card.
You have a currently have a $2 bill in your possession.
You have dated someone who was 2 years younger than you.
You have dated someone who was 2 years older than you.
You have broke up with someone for someone else.
You have cheated on someone.
You have been cheated on.
You are Catholic.
You are Mormon.
You are Buddhist.
You are Agnostic.
You wish at 11:11.
You have had your current job for more than 3 months.
You have had your heart broken.
You broke someone else’s heart.
You felt bad about it.
You have an Aunt Karen.
You have an Uncle Bill.
You have a cousin Sarah.
You have a cousin Adam.
You have worked with a Danielle.
You have ridden in a car with a Stephen.
You have hugged a Tiffany.
You have kissed a Blake.
You have had class with a David.
You have had a crush on an Emily.
You have dated a Derek.
You have been neighbors with a Hannah.
You have done something just for the fact that you were old enough to.
You have been to a cemetary at midnight.
You have been a vampire for Halloween.
You have been a witch for Halloween.
You have been a pumpkin for Halloween.
You have stayed up for 48 hours straight.
You have been to Walmart within the last 3 days.
You own a pair of scrubs.
You own a cowboy hat.
You own a leather coat.
You are missing someone right now.
You have been let down recently.
You have had someone you thought you could trust betray you.
You would rather have a one-night stand than a relationship.
You would rather win $500 from the lottery, than guest on a game show.
You have met someone famous.
There’s something else you should be doing at the moment.
You ate chicken today.
You are lactose intolerant.
There’s a nearby TV on.
You get along with your neighbors.
Twilight is a horrible series.
You’re hungry right now.
You have worked out today.
Running a mile sounds awful.
You have a job.
You love to bake Christmas cookies.
Your parents are still together.
You woke up before 8 this morning.
Baths are better than showers.
You are 5’5” or shorter.
You hate British accents.
Victoria’s Secret is a good store.
Cats are better than dogs.
The 90’s sucked.
Your cell phone is right next to you.
Your favorite color is either blue or purple.
Your hair is short.
You are by yourself right now.
The last thing you drank was water.
You’re in your PJ’s right now.
Your hair color is natural.
Fred from Youtube is annoying.
You don’t drink soda.
You are at least 130 lbs.(how heavy is this?!)
There’s at least 20$ in your wallet.
It’s cold out.
Orange juice is better than apple juice.
You love someone right now.
Video games are awesome.
Your sheets are white.
You have read works by Shakespeare before.
You’re fat.
You’ve been professionally diagnosed with a psychological disorder.
You know someone in the hospital right now.
You’ve showered today.
You know someone who has beaten cancer.
Sneakers are your favorite shoes to wear.
Chocolate is better than vanilla.
You’re allergic to peanuts.
You’ve never been to New York.
You’ve never been on a varsity sports team.
You want to go to Europe.
You’re using a laptop right now.
Plastic surgery is a good idea. (BECAUSE I WANNA BE A PLASTIC SURGEON LMAO)
Vanilla is the best scent a girl can wear.
You’ve made yourself throw up.
You’ve cheated on someone before.
You have a broken heart at the moment.
Your friends do drugs.
School is too early.
Your nails have nail polish on them right now.
You’re Italian.
You have a tan right now.
You’ve been on a diet before.
You shop in plus sized clothing stores.
Hot Topic is scary.
There are socks on your feet right now.
You’ve used a hair straightener.
Shopping online is easier than shopping in an actual store.
You’re in Verizon’s network.
Cheesecake is delicious.
Your BMI falls into the overweight category.
You have gotten your hair cut in the past month.
Your birthday is within the next 2 months.
You’ve been rejected.
Comedies are better than action films.
Math is the best subject.
You are fluent in more than one language.
You love Greek food.
You consider yourself a picky eater.
You have more than 3 pillows on your bed.
You live with your parents.
You’re happy right now. (half.)
You are a high school graduate.
You have a pet cat.
You were born before April 5th, 1991.
You have brown hair.
You have blue eyes.
You last name is longer than 5 letters long.
You are in a relationship.
You are can count to 20 in another language.
You have studied a foreign language.
You voted in the 2008 presidential election.
You own a vehicle that is older than a 2004.
You have worked 3rd shift.
You have worked in a fast food restaurant.
You drove somewhere that was further than a half hour away today.
You live in New Jersey.
You live in Montana.
You live in Pennsylvania.
Your last name begins with an ‘M’.
Your middle name begins with a ‘C’.
Your first name begins with an ‘S’.
You are older than 19.
You are younger than 16.
You are an only child.
Your parents are divorced.
You have more than one sibling.
You are an Aquarius.
You are a vegetarian.
You have a gym membership.
You are in the military.
You have a relative in the military.(ns?)
You have been to Canada.
You have been to Mexico.
You have been to Europe.
You are currently enrolled in college/university.
You have done something you told yourself you wouldn’t.
You have braces.
You wear contact lenses.
You have a tattoo on your ankle.
You have a tattoo on your wrist.
You have a tattoo on your lower back.
You have a tattoo on your upper arm.
You have a lip piercing.
You have a tongue piercing.
You have your nipples pierced.
You have your cartilage pierced.
You have curly hair.(wavy)
You have received flowers from someone in the last 2 months.
You are engaged.
You are married.
You have children.
You are an aunt or uncle.
Your bedroom walls are blue.
Your bedspread is red.
Your bedroom carpet is beige.
You have been out to eat at a sit-down restaurant in the last week.
You have been drunk in the past 24 hours.
You have lost your virginity before you turned 15.
You are bisexual.
You watch Scrubs.
You watch Jon & Kate Plus 8.
You watch American Idol.
You have been to the movies within the last month.
You have cursed in front of your grandparents.
You had a lunch box with a cartoon character on it when you were little. (guess what. Still have one now)
You actually pay attention to politics.
You are still waiting for your first kiss.
You have kissed someone within the last week.
You have kissed three or more people this year.
You would kiss the last person you kissed again.
You were told you looked cute today.
You were hugged today.
Your best friend is the opposite sex.
You have paid more than $100 on one item of clothing.
You had a date to prom.
You are a good speller.
You are always on time.
You believe in karma.
You have done something illegal within the last 24 hours. (lmao jaywalk)
You have thrown up within the last 6 months.
You have ridden an elevator within the last 3 days.
You have spent the night at someone else’s house within the last 2 weeks.
You have been out of the country within the last year.
You love Chinese food.
You love Italian food.
You love Mexican food.
You love country music.
You love rap.
You love hip hop.
You love punk rock.
You love hard rock.
You love metal.
You love classic rock.
You love bluegrass.
You love oldies.
You love techno.
You love instrumental music.
You have taken pictures of yourself just because you were bored.
You know someone younger than 10 who passed away.
You have been in a car wreck.
You have had stitches.
You have a parent who is a teacher.
You have a debit card.
You have a currently have a $2 bill in your possession.
You have dated someone who was 2 years younger than you.
You have dated someone who was 2 years older than you.
You have broke up with someone for someone else.
You have cheated on someone.
You have been cheated on.
You are Catholic.
You are Mormon.
You are Buddhist.
You are Agnostic.
You wish at 11:11.
You have had your current job for more than 3 months.
You have had your heart broken.
You broke someone else’s heart.
You felt bad about it.
You have an Aunt Karen.
You have an Uncle Bill.
You have a cousin Sarah.
You have a cousin Adam.
You have worked with a Danielle.
You have ridden in a car with a Stephen.
You have hugged a Tiffany.
You have kissed a Blake.
You have had class with a David.
You have had a crush on an Emily.
You have dated a Derek.
You have been neighbors with a Hannah.
You have done something just for the fact that you were old enough to.
You have been to a cemetary at midnight.
You have been a vampire for Halloween.
You have been a witch for Halloween.
You have been a pumpkin for Halloween.
You have stayed up for 48 hours straight.
You have been to Walmart within the last 3 days.
You own a pair of scrubs.
You own a cowboy hat.
You own a leather coat.
You are missing someone right now.
You have been let down recently.
You have had someone you thought you could trust betray you.
You would rather have a one-night stand than a relationship.
You would rather win $500 from the lottery, than guest on a game show.
You have met someone famous.
I wish I could somehow someday change the way you think, but right now it just seems like an impossible feat.
If you're not going to help yourself, no one else can help you. If you can't respect yourself then no one else would.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
FCK YES IT'S ALL OVER :) This 8-week long terror is finally overrrrr and I don't really give a shit about how I did at the moment (I know I'll take this back very soon but yay shall live in the moment of relief) hahahhhahah AHHH. We deserve a good break before the next lap of marathon starts all over again.
Wait but difference is when that one's over, it'd mean we're graduating soon )': Oh well. Went to watch Roommate with Alethea after school everyone else left/couldn't go zzz. ANYWAY it was freaking creepy la LEIGHTON MEESTER HELLO I can never watch gossip girl and not think that you are a FREAK. Creepy show. But Cam Gigandet is freaking hot omg I love guys with smokey eyes (like Zac Efron. sexy eyes) haha but how old is he... He has a kid O: Like a baby but that means he's probably old-ish right. Hollywood stars don't get married at a young age! I think. Oh yea I just checked he's 28. He looks 24 in the movie oh well good for him. And Minka Kelly (the female protagonist) is damn hot also la. Walao. Why's everyone so hot and gorgeous. I think my hot kid neighbour will grow up like that HAHA okay I'm just talking to myself in this post.
Wait but difference is when that one's over, it'd mean we're graduating soon )': Oh well. Went to watch Roommate with Alethea after school everyone else left/couldn't go zzz. ANYWAY it was freaking creepy la LEIGHTON MEESTER HELLO I can never watch gossip girl and not think that you are a FREAK. Creepy show. But Cam Gigandet is freaking hot omg I love guys with smokey eyes (like Zac Efron. sexy eyes) haha but how old is he... He has a kid O: Like a baby but that means he's probably old-ish right. Hollywood stars don't get married at a young age! I think. Oh yea I just checked he's 28. He looks 24 in the movie oh well good for him. And Minka Kelly (the female protagonist) is damn hot also la. Walao. Why's everyone so hot and gorgeous. I think my hot kid neighbour will grow up like that HAHA okay I'm just talking to myself in this post.
Thank goodness Alethea didn't claw my skin out though. We were the only ones in the cinema along with 2 other people then halfway this guy sneaked in and no one noticed. Damn creepy. We were the only ones screaming haha WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OTHER 3 HAHA. Maybe tomorrow we go to stomp and we'll see "RGS GIRLS SCREAMING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS IN THEATRES. PUBLIC NUISANCE."
Okay in my defense I didn't scream at all I just calmly ate my popcorn while she screamed like mad. (:
Okay in my defense I didn't scream at all I just calmly ate my popcorn while she screamed like mad. (:
Okay shall go read and slack without feeling guilty omg wtf i still can't believe exams just ended. Just like that. zzz
Monday, May 2, 2011
the day i knew you would leave
So many faces, which is the real you?
I just realised I survived 7 out of 8 of my pen-and-paper exams (yup Bio SPA tomorrow). So that's around 15 papers, AAs and PTs that I've survived this semester, which is about to draw to a close.
I guess I put my time to good use... only 40% of the time haha. I hate how I'll relax and digress only to rush things last minute and regret not working on things earlier. ): Time passes so fast I can't believe term 2 is about to end in 4 weeks. It doesn't even feel like we're half through the term!
I'm getting used to studying alone, been doing so for the past 2 days haha doesn't feel that bad lor now I understand why people like to do things alone sometimes. I can just zone out and think about random stuff without distractions HAHA.
Okay challenge day 5: a song that describes your day.
The Lazy Song - Bruno Mars hands down ahhahaha actually it describes my every day la like hello I'm a lazy fat bum.
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I found out something today that shocked me to bits. I know people change all the time. Growing up is a stage that we go through all the time (and yea lol we should know this better, with all the mitotic division shit). But it's something that I don't think I'll ever get accustomed to. Change is good, change is necessarily, yea all that bullshit but I just can't seem to like how when things change. Whether it's for the good or for the worse - it requires time to get accustomed to. Guess I'm just not a very adaptive person lolol.
But I realised that when a person changes, it is hard - if not impossible - to bring back the person that you first knew. It's kinda sad, but in a way it's good because you know that the person is happier with his/her newer life.
I need you to know: I'm happy for you. Like really, genuinely happy. But I need time to get used to these things.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Okay I'm alone at Starbucks (for the past 6 hours) and really bored, so I shall get back to my 30-day challenge.
Okay back to my parents. I think I'm closer to my dad. Because I communicate better with him. And he gives me pocket money and sends me to places (okay I must not take this for granted). But my mom's lovely too. I used to quarrel with my parents on a daily basis but I think now it's getting better. Really admire those people who're super close to their parents, as though they're each others' confidantes y'know. Oh well. Hahahahaha. Yea but one of my new year resolutions for each year will be to become closer to my parents. O: Hope it'll come true!!
Day 3: Your first love.
Errr.......... Okay. Let's just say I'm one who's very skeptical about 'love' because I don't believe love between two people of opposite genders (like romantically.)(or maybe two people of the same gender. hmmmlol) happens very easily. Let's just say I'm still waiting for it to come hahaha.
To make up for that I shall skip to day 4 (:
My parents.
Uhh well they're still happily married, thank God for that!! :D My parents quarrel a lot though, for the stupidest stuff ever. (When I say stupid stuff I really mean very stupid stuff) But hopefully one day when they're an old couple they'd look back at their younger days and thank each other for the company that they had given each other for the majority of their life. And that they'll always look at each other lovingly, like the picture I posted of Queen Elizabeth and Prince Philip. SO CUTE RIGHT. Hahha Queen Elizabeth is so cute I tweeted Prince Harry saying that (@iamPrinceHarry). But he never replied/retweeted me ): I figured it'd be easier to get him to retweet compared to Justin Bieber since he has way fewer followers and recognition since he just joined twitter for a few hours when I tweeted him. But oh well I should just give up JB will never retweet me and neither will any other celebrity.
HAHAHA. Btw my fav is still Taylor Swift, not JB and I admit that Jaden Smith is cooler than JB although JB is still freaking awesome (:
Okay back to my parents. I think I'm closer to my dad. Because I communicate better with him. And he gives me pocket money and sends me to places (okay I must not take this for granted). But my mom's lovely too. I used to quarrel with my parents on a daily basis but I think now it's getting better. Really admire those people who're super close to their parents, as though they're each others' confidantes y'know. Oh well. Hahahahaha. Yea but one of my new year resolutions for each year will be to become closer to my parents. O: Hope it'll come true!!
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It's been 3 days since I've turned 16 hahaha. My birthday was awesome, class clique took me on a magical adventure. It was an honest surprise I was so touched. :D And to the many people who sent me touching/cute/funny facebook messages/smses/cards/calls etc: thanks so much for making my day. And to those who didn't know me but still wished me: thanks so much too :D
16 doesn't feel any different from 15. But after I read Steph's card (Lol Brendan I know you'll read this so ya la thanks for being the messenger all the time HAHAHA. What a great neighbour to have OOOOOOO: ) I realised that 16 is in fact an important year. I can't just sit around hoping that I'd smoke through everything and not do any concrete planning/work. D: Still dreading JC, especially after meeting Lynn (with Dawne, at the rally). She made JC sound so scary D: Oh well but I guess it's not something that I can stop.
Okay I'm seriously bored I refuse to do math cos it's so boring + Idk how to do a lot of questions ahahha #failatlife.
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