Monday, January 31, 2011
Imma happy girl today! (y) And excited for school tomorrow. Yea I sound like a happy 6-year-old excited for first day of primary school ((((:
I gained back 1KG. Which I'm actually quiterelieved for cos it means I'm not losing weight the wrong way (i.e. through an illness). Which means I've still lost 1kg yay Roy I reached my goal for the month! (y) Goal for CNY is to not gain back to weight teehee. I think it may be possible, since I'm not recovered at my mom probably won't allow me to eat any snacks.
WHICH MEANS CNY'S ONLY MONEY FOR ME. AWSM, I can live with that :D
Ahhh I'm seriously freaking excited for school tomorrow hahaha finally going back after a whole week! Not gonna train though, obviously. But shall bring my beloved Mac to school and revise/do core/watch everyone else train.
OKAY I SHALL GO SLEEP NAO
Sunday, January 30, 2011
omg I miss you so soso much
Friday, January 28, 2011
I just had, like, a mini asthma attack during dinner. Kay not really, but I can hardly breathe now. Which means my asthma is acting up again after 2 months. I was so happy kay I could finnaly run properly and my stamina seems to be getting better and now suddenly wham asthmabitch is back )': Which means I'll take another few months to recover to be able to run properly again. Wtf I hate you asthma.
Today's like, my 6th day of being sick, and 5th day missing school. My tastebuds are seriously fcked up cos I just ate half a plate of bittergourd without finding it bitter at all lolololol. KNS I miss my friends so much )': Alethea wanted to come over to deliver Nuskin stuff + homework + cupcakes but I told her not to since my house is probably full of germs. But now I'm craving cupcakes arghrzzr.
I wonder how my seniors are doing in JC with their 2nd day of orientation. Miss B'div'10 and having funny seniors like Jinghan doing the epic monkey face and poking us hahahahha ohman. And teasing banana and having everyone else back. And them ordering the rest of the cca around. It feels weird to be in charge, still. It makes me sad knowing that once season's over, we're gonna stop training soon and I won't see my crazy awesome sweet juniors around much anymore )': I know at least I'll still see batch'12 when I go to j2 but I'll never get to see batch'13 onwards anymore!!! D: I'll miss Roy and her screams and laughters and Tessa's funny insults and Sheryl/Sam's bodywaves and ahh everyone else is so cute!!!! Reminds me of how we all were in lower sec. Ahhhh good times good times.
Okay yea it's a bit early for all these. But I'm kinda having random my-life-is-flashing-before-my-eyes moments. As though I'm dying LOL. But y'know just in case anything really happens, I love you guys :D And my mom and dad. And brother.
K whatever haha don't know why I said these.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
If anything, these past few days of sickness made me realise what awesome friends I have (:
All the messages and tweets etc asking me to get well all so sweet!! My body's a bitch, doesn't listen to me. But I'll get well soon! Can't wait to see everyone back at school ahhhhhhhhhhh.
All the messages and tweets etc asking me to get well all so sweet!! My body's a bitch, doesn't listen to me. But I'll get well soon! Can't wait to see everyone back at school ahhhhhhhhhhh.
sadly it also took away who I thought was a true friend. dude you got me fooled: all that talk about me not being there for you? Oh please, like you're ever there for me.
Monday, January 24, 2011
What's with the I-am-so-high-and-mighty-and-you-guys-should-all-listen-to-me-because-i-am-always-right-but-you-are-not attitude? I'm so sick of it.
Call yourself a friend, yet always blaming others whenever something goes wrong. Yea, I sure need a friend like that now. Gee.
Anyway I just thought at least you'd say thanks. But no, not a single word of appreciation from you. Guess all that effort was put in for nothing.
Thanks for teaching me this anyway, won't make the same mistake next time.
Call yourself a friend, yet always blaming others whenever something goes wrong. Yea, I sure need a friend like that now. Gee.
Anyway I just thought at least you'd say thanks. But no, not a single word of appreciation from you. Guess all that effort was put in for nothing.
Thanks for teaching me this anyway, won't make the same mistake next time.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
I feel like my world's crashing. seriously.
1) I'm sick. How can I fall sick, on the day RIGHT BEFORE Green Hornet's premiere? Oh God ):
2) I can't seem to manage to 'practice what I preach'. I keep telling people to be nice, but I'm not nice to everyone. Not even nice to people who deserve to be nice to. I'm like a hypocrite? Double faced? Yea whichever suits.
3) I thought about my life, and I realised it's so freaking hard to achieve what I want.
No wait, in the first place, do I really know what I want?
I know it's damn early to be ranting about all this shit but screw it man, time flies so quickly. Everytime I worry about something I keep giving the excuse that it's still a long way away and it's too early to think about it. But wham time flies. And reality bitch slaps you. Then you realise you have like what, a few days or a few weeks to make up your mind on something big? No, not fun at all.
So, uni's 3 years away. Never really hit me till a few days ago. THREE freaking years. I know I'm not even at JC but it scares me to know that I may never stand a chance to go to the course/uni that I want. Which means life will not be the way I planned it to be.
In the first place, do I really even want to be a doctor? Is it the passion or the incentives that are driving me towards that path?
My family doctor said that with no real passion or interest in medicine you'll never make it far as a doctor. Then I realise, without passion I can't even make it far in anything I do. Especially with my 3-minute attitude. I don't last for anything. Whether it's relationships or work or hobbies, my passion and interests don't last.
So what, that leads me back to my greatest fear in life. Failing life.
HOW AM I GONNA NOT FAIL LIFE?!?!?!?!??!
Kay by now you probably think i'm some paranoid crazy freak. Which I probably am. I think my flu bugs have been eating into my brain cells too. And my nerve system.
1) I'm sick. How can I fall sick, on the day RIGHT BEFORE Green Hornet's premiere? Oh God ):
2) I can't seem to manage to 'practice what I preach'. I keep telling people to be nice, but I'm not nice to everyone. Not even nice to people who deserve to be nice to. I'm like a hypocrite? Double faced? Yea whichever suits.
3) I thought about my life, and I realised it's so freaking hard to achieve what I want.
No wait, in the first place, do I really know what I want?
I know it's damn early to be ranting about all this shit but screw it man, time flies so quickly. Everytime I worry about something I keep giving the excuse that it's still a long way away and it's too early to think about it. But wham time flies. And reality bitch slaps you. Then you realise you have like what, a few days or a few weeks to make up your mind on something big? No, not fun at all.
So, uni's 3 years away. Never really hit me till a few days ago. THREE freaking years. I know I'm not even at JC but it scares me to know that I may never stand a chance to go to the course/uni that I want. Which means life will not be the way I planned it to be.
In the first place, do I really even want to be a doctor? Is it the passion or the incentives that are driving me towards that path?
My family doctor said that with no real passion or interest in medicine you'll never make it far as a doctor. Then I realise, without passion I can't even make it far in anything I do. Especially with my 3-minute attitude. I don't last for anything. Whether it's relationships or work or hobbies, my passion and interests don't last.
So what, that leads me back to my greatest fear in life. Failing life.
HOW AM I GONNA NOT FAIL LIFE?!?!?!?!??!
Kay by now you probably think i'm some paranoid crazy freak. Which I probably am. I think my flu bugs have been eating into my brain cells too. And my nerve system.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I really, really, really can't stand you at times. Argh why does it have to be like that.
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