destiny's calling

I don't get why people keep lying to me. Do I really seem that gullible or naive? Or do I have a stupid face that makes you think that I'll take in anything you say? Fck la seriously. Hate this shit. You're supposed to be one of the people I can trust the most in this freaking world. Yet you lie to me all the damned time.

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Recalling yesterday's 6 things you wished you never did: I regret doing things in moments of folly.

Damn I really hate myself for saying things that I can't take back. I wish I could just put down my pride sometimes and let go, but it's just so hard. I hate having to watch myself and everything I do/say in order to not hurt you, but end up doing exactly what I meant not to do.

[edit] Okay I just typed a whole long paragraph and deleted everything. What's the point? It's dumb how we both think we're out to get each other. My pride is too high, and I guess so is yours. You think that I'm not considering your feelings, and I think vice versa. You know how lame this is? I can't even find a word to describe this. I guess selfish genes do exist after all. Fully proven. Fuck today's just not my day.[/edit]

Knn I'm being a selfish childish bitch. Again. Just damn sick of this why can't things go back to the way they were last year.