destiny's calling

Will blog more about it later. Right now I just wanna say:

Whoever you are, I'm super sick of judgements and accusations, okay? If you even treat me as a friend at all then you won't be so selfish to INSULT ME ANONYMOUSLY. I can take it if you just send me a long message with vulgarities and whatever or call me and scream into the phone and tell me i suck and whatever for being dao, but I can't condone it if you're doing it anonymously. It's hypocritical.

Anyway I thought about it, I probably am in the wrong for being dao and rude, and I'm sorry for that. It's just that sometimes (according to people like minchih lol!) I use too little smiley faces in my smses so people can't tell my tone. But seriously if I'm being dao just those few times, give me a break man I may just be really tired. And in my defence, my life doesn't 'serve to revolve around good friends only', for goodness sake. Everyone means a lot to me, perhaps just some more than others. I mean think about it. If you've had a friend who's been with you through thick and thin and shared all the horrible times with you and is close like siblings to you, would you love her/him more than your other friends? DON'T SAY NO. That's impossible. Unless you're God who loves everyone the same, that is beyond human capacities.

Oh and let me just ask you one question. If you really think that I don't treat you as a proper friend; if I had never done anything nice for you that deserves your friendship; if all that I had been was "rude and dao" then why is that part of you still holding on to this 'friendship'?