destiny's calling

1) I'm very, very, very paranoid and insecure. I constantly think that people hate me/are bitching about me all the time. Or that my friends are angry with me. Or I have some terminal illness (yeah there was this period of time in sec 2 I though I had diabetes and cancer because my hairfall was abnormal...... hahhahahah dumb)

2) I stalk pretty girls HAHAHHAHA okay this is really really really really embarrassing and lesbianic but wtp. People like beautiful things right? So natural instinct. I think I'm lesbian...................... NOT. hahaha

3) Oh no I can't think of anything. OH! I've never put on braces before, in case you're wondering! I'm proud of my awesome teeth (y)

4) I share a lot with people. As in not material but like a lot of personal thoughts, experiences and all that. Even if I don't know you well I tell you stuffs and I trust you to keep things between us. I think sharing of experiences/advices help me learn a lot.

5) I really want to make friends but I'm afraid to start conversations. Especially if those people give me the "I am not fit to be friends with you" feeling. Brings me back to my insecurities issue. Lolol

6) I'm secretly smart. K just kidding but I'm not stupid kay. People tell me I look like a paikia who doesn't study and only knows how to play. Guess what. NOT TRUE. I study a lot. Or TRY TO at least. I think I'm a nerd hahhaha I want to be one at least! I'M NOT A WILD CHILD omg lolz.

7) I like waking up and seeing messages in my inbox. Idk it just makes me feel happy haha weird right I know.

8) (edit) I get jealous easily and is very protective/possessive over some friends. Bad thing I know. But can't help it. Rawr

9) I'm also VERY. VERY. VERY. VERY. scared of ghosts. Or other-worldly beings. I know I'm not supposed to believe in this! Okay how about spirits. Yea I'm scared. I was walking in some underground tunnel to the MRT and I heard a baby crying but didn't see a baby in sight so I was thinking "wtf ghost" and I got so scared I started tearing. This is only one of the many many examples haha.

K done! Omg so hard to think of stuff. They're not even very interesting :/ Whatever 'interesting' isn't one of the requirements!!

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Truth is, I don't feel like I fit in at all.

I love you guys to bits, but something's just out of place.